I am pursuing theological education at the Spiritual Formation with LSTC’s Project Starling. I want to get a proper formation and explore if God has a plan for me here in His church with the ELCA.

I continue with my Franciscan Lutheran Monk’s prayer groups, to emulate how to be holy without having much of the outside world intrude.

Both take years to pursue, which gives me plenty of time to discern. I don’t wish to continue down a path simply because I’m stubborn and I feel obligated; I want to fall in love with the Church at its roots and work my way back to where it is today. It might be that I have to go elsewhere, but I want to give it an honest chance to move me. Perhaps feel once again like the first day I came in.

I have a sketch of an idea that there’s a place for people like me, and perhaps if I can find a path, that’ll be a path for others who have left the church and wish to come back. That is what I truly hope God has in store for me.

I continue to pray for wisdom and guidance, and I ask you do too.